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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 00:32

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

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We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Why, after a divorce, would one still want to ruin the other one’s life?

Would this be the day?

I write beautiful poetry .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

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So, i spoilt her more .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

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BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

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I have no regrets .

I never cut or harmed myself..

I could never make a relationship work though!

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

One cannot live in the past .

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Put me off passion for life!!

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

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As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

We all went to grammer schools

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

How can I get my ex-husband to love me again?

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I couldn’t, believe it.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

She married twice! .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Who then, do I blame.?

The only rule us 5 kids had .

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

So whats the point in blame.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

(And it was in our own minds.)

But ive been too sick for many years..

And i lived it daily.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I was 9 years of age.

What did i know ?

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

This is soul school!.

I was very sick at this time too.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

She loved him until the end.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

I said to her

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

She found it foreign!.

She was in good health!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was seconnd youngest,

I will be 64.

When she asked me how she looked .

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

He knew the spot.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I don,t even have a pension.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But it wasn’t much.

I was scared of men, in general

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

It was going to be , some day.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Ive learnt so much.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

We were not on the streets..

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Especially a lifetime of it.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

My family never makes their pension either.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Im still living with it.

Comes on , in middle age.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

All the time i was locked up.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

My life is so biszare .

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She wouldn,t have been !

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

But, we were locked up after school.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I waited trembling.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I think the readers, may guess!