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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 04:39

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

She loved him until the end.

Who then, do I blame.?

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I was scared of men, in general

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

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Ive learnt so much.

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We all went to grammer schools

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

But it wasn’t much.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

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She was in good health!

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

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So, i spoilt her more .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

He resisted the act ,that day.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

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Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Comes on , in middle age.

Im still living with it.

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

He knew the spot.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

One cannot live in the past .

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Put me off passion for life!!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I have no regrets .

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I waited trembling.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She married twice! .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I was very sick at this time too.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I couldn’t, believe it.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

(And it was in our own minds.)

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I said to her

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

This is soul school!.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

But, we were locked up after school.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I could never make a relationship work though!

But ive been too sick for many years..

When she asked me how she looked .

I was 9 years of age.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

She found it foreign!.

My family never makes their pension either.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I don,t even have a pension.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

What did i know ?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Why did i forgive my father ?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I was seconnd youngest,

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I write beautiful poetry .

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I think the readers, may guess!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

All the time i was locked up.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

She wouldn,t have been !

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

We were not on the streets..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I will be 64.

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His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Especially a lifetime of it.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Was to survive, this bastard.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

So whats the point in blame.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Would this be the day?

I never cut or harmed myself..

It was going to be , some day.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

My life is so biszare .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And i lived it daily.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!